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26 June 2009 @ 04:13 pm
Michael Jackson's death meet my soap box.  
I truly believe that in his lifetime Michael Jackson made inappropriate sexual advances towards prepubescent children. Whether he raped a child, I don't know. But I have no doubt that a grown man thinks it's normal and loving to sleep in a bed with young boys - smacks to much to this educated woman of things she's read/heard other pedophiles and child rapists say about their victims. However, in my own education experience I believe there are two types of pedophiles, those pathetic child like pedophiles ala MJ and those sadistic child rapists that enjoy terrorizing and controlling their young victims. That is not to say that one is "preferred" over the other. I have no doubt that both types of abusers damage their victims extensively, sometimes irreparably.

I am firm on my position with child rapists. I will never give Roman Polanski a dime and I am so freakin' RELIEVED that Michael Jackson is dead.

Having said that...

I really love his music up to the Bad album. That man is a damn genius and his beats still make me smile. AND I FIND THAT REALLY CONFLICTING and have been snipping at the boyfriend every time he makes some joke about something and OHMYGOD I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU CALLED ME AT WORK TO TALK ABOUT THE DEAD PEODOPHILE MICHAEL JACKSON.

So for the most part I'm all "Yay he's dead! Now I can enjoy his music (that I may have appropriated from the interwebs) guilt free!"

And then I start thinking about his kids and it's OH GOD GUILT allover again. ::bashes head against wall... in beat with smooth criminal::

[EDIT]

I just read the following from here: "What emerged at the trial wasn't the picture of a man playing with children in order to seduce them. It was the picture of a man playing with children because he sees himself as one of them."

I have a but...

We've all played Doctor, right? I don't think it's okay for a developmentally arrested adult to play an "innocent" game of doctor with any child. Ever. Two of my six (blood, step & adopted) siblings were molested, one by a family friend who told my sibling they were going to "play tickle". Then my sibling took showers in a swimsuit for SIX MOTHERFUCKING MONTHS at the age of 7. That shit is never going to be cool.

I remember these things. I remember every story anybody has ever told me about somebody doing A Bad Thing to them. I keep track of which of my friends can tolerate certain sense memories. e.g. a certain brand of toothpaste is banned from my presence when a particular friend is nearby.

As brilliant and engaging of a performer he was I am incapable of forgetting that Michael Jackson harmed children. PeriodDot.

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grooving to: The Stephanie Miller show ft. Hal Sparks
mood:: bewildered
 
 
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22 March 2008 @ 02:03 am
Drive by post - I can not remember this song or artist. Help!?  
In the chorus of the song dude croons "This is it" and then *shouts* "This is it"

The song ends with him at the piano and there's an exploding goldfish bowl at the end of the video. C'mon 90s fen. You know who I mean. TELL ME WHO I MEAN.

ETA: GOOGLE NINJA!! After half-an-hour this google search boolean: "this is it" 90s lyrics finally turned up Faith No More's Epic. And the lyrics "this is it" never actually appear in the song ever, as told by the best most awesome lyrics website ever Lyrics Directory here. And the video can be viewed HERE! Where you can watch their drummer and pretend it's Ronon. Oh and there's no exploding goldfish bowl, but a flopping dying fish on the ground and an exploding piano. There is fucked up goldfish stuff though. It's in Falling to Pieces here.
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grooving to: Days of the New - Touch, Peel and Stand
mood:: frustrated
 
 
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04 January 2008 @ 02:56 pm
Cobra Starship show Feb 15 in LA. WHO'S COMING WITH ME?  
I'm buying tickets from a dude this weekend. I can buy up to 4. I have no idea who the other bands are. I DON'T CARE. I WANT TO WATCH GABE SHIMMY FROM SPITTING DISTANCE.

Anybody wanna join me? Text me! link on my user info. I'm working late tonight and will have sporadic email time.
 
 
locale: work
mood:: stressed
 
 
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01 January 2008 @ 03:34 am
I lack an appreciation of music icon. But here's some music!  
I'm a music h0r, wench and snob. In 2001 when I did my first full backup I had 8 DVDs of music. I ph34r having to do that again. When I started at my job of awesome Kyle asked me what kind of music I grew up on - which I found an odd sort of question. I told him my Dad's guitar and classical. He responded thusly: Oh. So you're a music snob. And when I was done blinking I replied, Yeah, I guess I am. But I don't judge others! ...Much. I was in one of the most challenging choirs EVER in junior high. We did Quaker music people. I was 12 and 13. I loved it. No other choir has been quite as satisfying b'c they've all been so easy.

So I've been... trained with a certain kind of ear. I hear technique. Though I didn't care for their music I've appreciated N*Sync since back in the day because they enunciate and hold their vowels and have FIVE PART HARMONY. N*Sync is made of h0rs. I don't appreciate music that is "catchy" because the melody and beat is too simple - I can't get the damn song OUT of my head. I want music to carry me somewhere. I want a journey. shut up! [livejournal.com profile] morgandawn! I hear you giggling! I want an *experience*.

It's easier for me to list the genres I blatantly dislike than those that I do, plus there's a lot of music I appreciate while not strictly being fond of it. I don't like New Country. I despise Smooth Jazz. Whatever crap ass poser sub-genre Matchbox 20 and that I Wish I Was Eddie Vedder christian rock band belong to. Brass heavy arrangements. Choral music that can be sung with no training. Most, but not all, thrasher and death metal. 80s ballads and 80s music that isn't crack. Hey! I was listening to The Boss and Billy Joel that decade! Pop in large doses and Backstreet Boys - they lack true harmony and couldn't enunciate to save their lives and other crap ass commercially arranged bands. Quality music that has been over homogenized and made Stadium Ready. Like what happened to Aqualung when sony got a hold of him - they threw in a casio keyboard string section that drowned out the beauty of his piano playing. Oh! And the Phil Collins drumming style. It's the Thing that prevents me from worshiping the ground Dave Matthews Band walks on.

When I discover new music that I *love* it's like TREASURE! Because it doesn't happen very often. This fall I had a damn good run and got like half a dozen bands (or more b'c I'm not done) and I want to share them with you on a somewhat restricted filter. If you want in and aren't comment here. If you're in you should be able to see this post.
 
 
mood:: happy
grooving to: Kate Nash - Foundations
 
 
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25 June 2007 @ 06:16 am
I'd fire you all but... there aren't very many of you here.  
Okay first things first. I really really REALLY hate SoCal and Los Angeles in particular. There were SO MANY STUPID CHILDREN THERE. OH GOD!!! Just... oh god I hate them. HATE THEM SO MUCH. Okay those of you outside California or not into the rock scene or... just whatever. I mean very few of you are actually children anyway and... You are my flist you get a free pass. So last night Pete wanted a Circle Pit - counter clockwise (man knows what he likes). Girls behind me, GIRLS, were all, ::skoff:: It's a mosh pit! Not a "circle pit." ::hair flip::

Surprisingly I did not turn around and beat them. Nor did I say anything mean. But yes, I said something. I mean I *had* to! Those of you who know me are laughing right now. :-) I mean I had to, right? So what I said was, "Circle Pits are a California thing. We're kinda famous for it." Not that I've ever been in a mosh pit myself. I'm a delicate lady y'know. Right but... YOU DON'T SCOFF AT THE BAND WHEN THE BAND ORDERS YOU AROUND. YOU DON'T DIS PETE!!! YOU DON'T DIS THE BEAUTIFUL ADONIS CROONING AT YOU FROM THE STAGE. Oh right the firing.

But I'm not actually firing anybody today. Many of you are very Patrick focused so I really can't blame you. ::eyes [livejournal.com profile] natilathehun:: PETE IS THE MOST UNPHOTOGENIC PERSON OF EVER. Compared to Pete In The Flesh? Pete On Paper is a fugly step-child. Good babies that man is DELICIOUS IN PERSON. Every time he smiled I wanted to tear all my clothes off AND KNEEEEEEL. He is STUNNINGLY BEAUTIFUL. Just... I HAVE NEVER SEEN ANYONE SO BREATHTAKINGLY BEAUTIFUL IN PERSON BEFORE. Just... EVERY TIME HE SMILED I WANTED TO BE NAKED.

Oh and I could *see* his smile b'c by the time Fall Out Boy was on their 3rd song [livejournal.com profile] lierdumoa and I were six people from the barricade just to the right of the stage.

Oh and Joe? Joe is the best Joe that ever Joe'd. JOE IS AMAZING!!! TROHMANIA BITCHES!!! TROHMANIA!!!!

I love Patrick. I really do. But I don't know if I love him in that way. I want to see his beatific smile when he's raising his babies. And I do believe he's the sexiest cream skinned cherub faced man out there. I often dream of mouthing his jawline and other soft and fleshy creamed skin parts of his delicious body. But last night? He kinda phoned it in. He... there was no sparkle. Plus he was hard to hear over the mass of people trying squeeze me like old toothpaste. And there was this tone deaf big guy behind me who... has really good lungs. Didn't like it when I was watching him though. HA! Got all embarrassed and quiet. That was nice. And when Patrick belted I could sorta hear him? But... like next time? Well okay at least two more times b'c seriously I want to be ON THE BARRICADE SUFFOCATING and then another time up and away from the crowd so I can just listen to his crooning voice.

Okay so y'all get a pass on the Pete is Stunningly Breathtakingly Beautiful thing. However, I really am very very ashamed of all of you who didn't tell me that GABE SAPORTA IS MADE OF SEX. I would FIRE you ALL but Gabe doesn't really seem to have any sort of following. Or at the very least it's ridiculously disorganized. I mean... THE ICONS I DID FIND ARE FOR SHIT. I mean... not of any sort of quality I can tolerate. Well okay a fair number of the Gabe/Bill Beckett icons were okay. But I'm not interested in sharing Gabriel right now. I want his pointy pointy prick for myself.

Oh yes. Prick. His voice is so pointy. His pipes are nearly as powerful as Patrick's but in a completely different way. AND THE DANCING. OH GOD THE DANCING WAS JUST THE BEST THING MY EYES HAVE SEEN SINCE I LAST SAW MY GIRLFRIEND'S NAKED AND SOMEWHAT POINTY HIPS. He... I SQUEAK AT THE MEMORY OF HIS HIP SHIMMY. THAT SHIMMIED. I just want to get stoned with him and climb into his pointy lap and make out with his pointy face and get his pointy fingers all up under my shirt and HE IS THE SEXIEST FUCKING THING ON THAT MOTHER FUCKING STAGE. With the GAY jokes!! He... SO GAY! And the beatings!! I mean there weren't any beatings but they made it sound like that's all they do off stage. He... He he's such a beautiful... prick.

Oh and The Academy Is... needs to be seen live to be properly appreciated and loved. They were awesome!
 
 
grooving to: Cobra Starship - Being From New Jersey Means Never Having To Say You're Sorry
mood:: naughty
 
 
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05 June 2007 @ 10:07 pm
FALL OUT BOY and job hunting  
Post of substance coming soon. This is what stalling looks like.



I have the bestest friends of EVER. They let me sleep on their couches for months at a time, feed me, tell me when I'm being a jackass or cruel, and sometimes call me a horrible person b'c I'm a Pervy Hobbit Fancier, but my favorite thing right now?

THEY BUY ME FALL OUT BOY TICKETS!!!!

I'm going to see Fall Out Boy with [livejournal.com profile] lierdumoa and our friend (who's LJ name I can't remember how to spell from memory. But she's made of win too!) [livejournal.com profile] goluxexmachina in June in LA!! Y'know, that place I'm kind of living in right now! I'm just SO VERY EXCITED!!! I'M GOING TO SEE PRETTY PRETTY PATRICK!! AND COBRA STARSHIP!!! AND DID I MENTION THE PATRICK!?? WHO IS VERY VERY PRETTY?
 
 
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09 May 2007 @ 06:01 am
I'm kind of falling in love with t.A.T.u. right now. Send help?  
Y'know how we have bad!fic that we love and adore? How we can get through the most atrocious story if our kink is well served?

I've been going through bad!Music all week. The Remixes of t.A.T.u. are particularly captivating b'c the album contains a lot of deep beats and jungle. No house filler "baby don't hurt me" keyboards. I've also been listening to 30 Seconds to Mars and the new Avril. Oh and I've accepted my love for the female singer in Evanescence.

I'm a vocal h0r. By which I mean I can listen to HORRIBLE MUSIC and hone in on the technical merit of the singer(s). And that Evanescence bitch can SING. And Jared Leto may have pasted on a brand new cookie cutter personality! But he can sing too! Bitch took lessons I do believe. And okay Avril isn't particularly vocally gifted or... she doesn't flaunt it, but the beats on her new album and hearing the tiny thing go MOTHERFUCKER just WINZ!!

Oh have you perhaps been wondering where I've been? Or what the hell I'm doing in Burbank? Yeah... that's not this post. You'll get that one soon.
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grooving to: TATU - Not Gonna Get Us (Thick Dick Vocal)
locale: Burbank, CA
 
 
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07 April 2007 @ 03:16 am
Slowly working my way through Depeche Mode. And it's Pollen Disease Season. ::bleargh::  
And by slowly I mean a different album every week or so. I don't want all the albums to bleed together into this big jumble of... jumbliness.

I did check out In Your Room upon [livejournal.com profile] kuwsi_dilla's suggestion. I like it, but it weaves and flows more than it rips into my body and slams me up against the wall. I want to be *slammed* right now.

Also allergy pollen disease season has officially started. Watch this space for bitching, whining and general miserableness. Yes, yes I did move 30 miles south west and closer to the ocean. and yes this IS better. I have entire days off right now. If I get enough sleep I don't seem to get the mini-migraines/super-sized headaches. I can't decide what to call them. They're not migraines in the sense that they knock me down and stop the day from happening. But, they're one sided, pain down the neck, respond to triptans and they're worse than what I would call a headache. But they're not near as bad as what *I* would call a migraine.

Wherein I tell you, in great detail, just what kind of migraines and headaches I get. )
 
 
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17 October 2006 @ 06:28 pm
Red Hot Chili Peppers RULE! And Flea is a GOD!!  
Uh... I meant to post this back in August. Whoops! Oh right. I was holding the post while I looked for a good Flea icon. Apparantly I never found one. ::throws up hands::


Apparently I shouldn't go to concerts in Oakland anymore. A) They always suck. B) The stench of unshared weed is... stenchy.

Sacramento is clearly the place to go, since they don't have arena concerts in San Francisco anymore? Cow Palace oh Cow Palace! Where fore art thou Cow Palace!?

I saw The Red Hot Chili Peppers in Oakland last week August 24th. It blew chunks. Nasty stinky omg SO MANY CHILDREN chunks! Children who didn't even know the words to Give It Away! ::beats them::

But the Sacramento show yesterday August 28th was KEY! The weed wasn't so palpable at the Arena and if one is so inclined there could be dinner at [livejournal.com profile] mistressace's! This one was so inclined. Ace and I shared a lovely meal and then she let me get a peak at Man of Justice. Mmmmmm. Plus there were floor seats. Floor. SEATS! Oh and how did I get those floor seats? I am a silver card carrying member of Rockinfreakapotamus - the RHCP fan club. I got presale tickets to the Sacramento show and OMG SO WORTH IT OMG!!!

THEY PLAYED BLOOD SUGAR SEX MAGIK!!!

I nearly exploded! I definitely scared the children next to me with my shrieking and bouncing about.

I didn't really know before, but I'm totally Flea's girl. And Sacramento LOVES Flea!! Oakland was all about John and his airy fairy solos of apparant hotness. I mean John is *awesome* but... his charisma is a little pasted on. The heroin aged him like 20 years and it's still a little startling to see his new face. But Flea was just... oh god EVERYWHERE. And using his guitar to make out with John's guitar and it was KEY!

Playlist of Awesome:
  1. Some random Stadium Arcadium song of mediocre suck
  2. Charlie - a better Stadium Arcadium song
  3. Freaky Styley - squee!!!
  4. Parallel Universe
  5. Blood Sugar Sex Magik - iz ded
  6. Hey Oh - bathroom break
  7. Me and My Friends
  8. I wrote down "You don't call" No idea what this track is though.
  9. Right On Time
  10. Flea solo - some classical piece that a 2nd yr piano student would play.
  11. Don't Forget Me
  12. Tell Me Baby
  13. Tiny Dancer - John solo
  14. Flea/John - down tempo guitar porn
  15. Californication
  16. By The Way
  17. AUDIENCE SCREAMING ENCORE OMG!!!
  18. I Could Have Lied
  19. You're Gonna Get Yours/Give It Away
  20. Flea/John/Chad outro of absolute beauty
I know that I'm just a youngin' myself. So when I say children you should know I mean those... children who were still in the sand box when Nirvana hit the airwaves. They *missed* things. And recently one of them wondered at me about "the big deal" with Nirvana. But he's this huge Alice in Chains and Soundgarden h0r. How does he not know that Nirvana was the gateway? How could he not know who SAVED US from The Cure et al.? SAAAAAVED!! ::beats them::

Children.

::BEATS THEM SO MUCH OMG!!::
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mood:: cheerful
grooving to: Apache Rose Peacock - Red Hot Chili Peppers
 
 
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13 October 2006 @ 01:02 am
EVIL LAUGHING BABY CLOWN IS A VIDEO!!!  
How did I hear? Well I happen to be on the official Mr. Justin Timberlake mailing list. Shut up. This if fandom. There is no shame here. Sadly I can't find a hi-res version to share. But as soon as I do you'll know! And the Evil Laughing Baby Clown doesn't make an appearance. But obviously it's been molesting Mr. Timberlake's soul cavity.

My Love - Mr. Timberlake

OH GOD HE ACTUALLY DANCES WITH DANCERS AND CHOREOGRAPHY!!! OH GOD!!! OH MY GOD I'M GOING TO EXPLODE!!! I have missed his dancing so so very much. He moves like a liquid spaghetti noodle of sex. Like y'know that Halloween game where you put macaroni noodles in a bowl and call it brains? Yeah, so watching Timberlake dance is like laying on this giant *bed* of warm spaghetti and it just *slithers* all around you all al dente and... ::drifts::

Good Christ. HE RIPS OFF HER STOCKINGS!!!

::rewatches:: Did I mention that the video starts with some chick feelin' on his ass? Oh god he looks *right* at the camera when he says "piece of that pie" and does a hand spready motion LIKE HE IS PARTING YOUR THIGHS TO GET A TASTE OF YOUR PIE! And then he and timbaland do a *thing* that might be Rock Paper Sissors Ro Sham Bo or it *might* be the universal sign for masturbation... hard to say.

Tricksy Mother Fucker!
 
 
grooving to: My Love - Mr. Timberlake
mood:: oh god spent
 
 
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20 September 2006 @ 09:54 pm
[livejournal.com profile] mona1347 is so Awesome!  
Place holder post for one of the most awesome Harry and the Potters songs: This Books is so Awesome!

Lyrics:
This book is so awesome!
I can do anything!
This book is so awesome!
I am the Potions King!

Did you hear that Half Blood Prince?!?
I said I was the King!
Did you hear me Professor Snape?!?
I can make ANYTHING!

This book is so awesome!



Okay, I lie. This post is totally for [livejournal.com profile] mona1347 because she's awesome! Adjusted lyrics:

Mona you're so awesome!
You can do anything!
Mona you're so awesome!
You are the Admin Queen!

Did you hear that Ass Clown Boss?!?
I said she was the Queen!
Did you hear me you stupid ass?!?
She can do ANYTHING!

Mona you're so awesome!



I've taken to singing the first line when I'm excited about a thing. Which I totally started doing at vividcon and then made [livejournal.com profile] lierdumoa listen to the song. And now we both do it. The 'awesome' usually trails off into a gigglefit. We are so awesome!
 
 
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08 September 2006 @ 04:19 am
I... I think I have to give Mr. Timberlake my money.  
Oh god. This album? I want to stuff dollar bills in his panties. Yes they're panties. Good christ. I... my vagina feels well fucked through my ears. Oh god... my bosom is all a tingle.

I feel... oh god. I... yeah. I'm approaching non-verbal. But before I get there.... [livejournal.com profile] coniraya? WE ARE SO GOING TO THE TIMBERLAKE SHOW!!! AND YOU WILL CATCH ME WHEN I SWOON LIKE A WEE TEENAGED BABY!!!

I'm going to do a track by track timber-gasm. This is why he is always Mr. Timberlake for me. He makes me want to KNEEEEEL!!! )
 
 
grooving to: FutureSex/LoveSound - Justin Timberlake
mood:: enthralled
 
 
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28 August 2006 @ 10:09 pm
Voice Post - Chili Peppers RULE!!!  
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locale: parking lot in Sacramento
mood:: bouncy
grooving to: Blood Sugar Sex Magic - RHCP
 
 
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20 August 2006 @ 02:14 am
House is eeeeeevil!!  
OH god.... Ok. The highlight of Vividcon for me *after* meeting [livejournal.com profile] seperis and spronging her curls was [livejournal.com profile] astolat's Bukowski. It's a House vid. No, no. It is THEE House vid. I have no idea who/what Bukowski is. [livejournal.com profile] coniraya said he's some author who people hate and stuff. But the song is by Modest Mouse and the chorus is KEY and OH GOD!!! [livejournal.com profile] astolat is a GOD DAMN GENIUS!!!

Okay so besides shiny crack the vid is hilarious and KEY. It gave me my House love back. House is evil. Oh god I love him. Stacy made him soooooft. *hates stacy* Stupid fat hobbit!!! And shalott!? God I want to hug her and squeeze her and oh god she made Modest Mouse shiny! I immediately got that Modest Mouse album. And duuuuuude!!

Did y'all know that Modest Mouse is bat shit crazy? No for serious! That crap that is on the radio? TOTAL SMOKE SCREEN! For they are PUPPY KILLERS!! Yes, they totally kill puppies. It makes me so happy. I play at work for the joy.

puppy verse )

The style of the song is very Tom Waits-ish but without the grating Waits vocal style. They're just so whimsical and tricksy! I love it when things are tricksy.

ETA:
Okay I don't think that puppies should die. That's not what I'm saying... y'know how there are those people who think dead baby jokes are hilarious? No it's not even that. It's that I get to point and say, "They're totally singing about killing puppies!!!" I mean who does that? and isn't some "deep" and "angry" band. Modest Mouse is like bouncy and ~~La la la!!~~ Joyfully singing about killing puppies is recockulous and ... like so absurd I can't even think of a more absurd way to describe it. It's absurd like somebody's old grandpa wearing granny's apron with feather duster in hand and twirling around the living room dusting and singing. It's the kind of shit that Does Not Happen.

ETA ii:
This is me licking the crack off my own skin. *G*
 
 
grooving to: Satin in a Coffin - Modest Mouse
mood:: weird
 
 
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26 July 2006 @ 11:56 pm
God was being Subversive when he created Justin Timberlake  
So Mr. Timberlake has a new music video out. But before we get to that I'd like to tell you the story of how the Illest Black Man Who Ever Lived (TM Youri*) came to be:

Godtown circa 1981

God looked down at Michael Jackson and said, "Fuck! He's perving on the children! And... and... What the FUCK! Is he getting whiter?! GOD DAMMIT!! *puff of cloud*

*turns back towards Godtown* "Angels!"

*an abundance of wings flutter in God's general direction*

"MAKE ME ANOTHER!"

*Angels fly towards the ghettos of the East and Midwest*

"Hold Up!"

*Angels pause mid-flight*

"Let's make him white from the beginning this time!"

*Angels fly South*

And on the 723,591st Day God Made Justin Timberlake.



JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE'S NEW VIDEO IS SO FUCKING HOT MY PANTIES WOULD BE ON FIRE IF NOT FOR THE WETNESS

Other Reasons You NEED To See This Video:

It Opens with HAND PORN!!

FOURTEEN SECOND LEAN IN!!!

HE SAYS MOTHER FUCKER!!! OUT LOUD!

What [livejournal.com profile] lierdumoa says. God does she BRING IT!

He fucks a girl on the dresser, floor strewn with wet broken glass, and bed but Never EVER do we see his lips touch hers. Tricksy Mother Fucker.

Substantial Vocal Experimentation. Mr. Timberlake does this *thing* with his voice. He's never done it before to my knowledge. He's totally playing and experimenting here and it's SO FUCKING HOT!! It's like a physical thing when he sings babe, slave, misbehave, and way in the bridge. It made my wrist and my hips do a *thing* from where I was sitting on my couch. And... panties? RUINED!

In addition to his subversive song title Mr. Timberlake brings us Dirty Drrty Subversive Lyrics:
I’m bringing sexy back;
them other boys don’t know how to act.
I think it’s special, what’s behind your back?
so turn around and I’ll pick up the slack.

Dirty babe, you see these shackles;
baby I’m your slave.
I’ll let you whip me if I misbehave;
it’s just that no one makes me feel this way.



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And when those run out [livejournal.com profile] theantimodel has ever so kindly offered up her bandiwdth here.

* Trinidadian [livejournal.com profile] lierdumoa's sister's black boyfriend

ETA:
Be looking for more Genderfuck meta soon. I have to screen cap first. B'c there's totally genderfuck ALL OVER THIS VID. *GLEE*
 
 
grooving to: Sexy Back - Justin Timberlake
mood:: predatory
 
 
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21 June 2006 @ 02:14 am
I will love him and hug him and squeeze him and call him George  
I can't call my baby brother "The Boy" after today. So we're calling him George from now on. This pleases me. As does this icon I dug up. That's George and I wrasslin' at the park when we were wee.



I love my baby brother like WHOA. I got to touch him today. I had no idea how crazy that was making me. I haven't laid hands on him in almost two weeks. And I haven't been able to hug his softness in months. I felt... de-limbed and fragmented. I think they had him on sedatives. He was still crazy manic and delusional but like... touchable and not moving like a tweaker. He still moved but it was less... frantic. Calm for a manic person. *g* And if this is as good as it gets? I'll be Okay. If meds can give us days like today where I can touch him and the love is palpable in the room, then I'll be Okay.

George is trying to communicate with music. It's something he's done his whole life, we just didn't realize how critical it was for his well being. He's carrying the lyrics to Tom Waits' Blue Valentines around in his pocket. He showed them to me today, like some prized treasure. He wants me to listen to that album and Beck's Mutations. Have I mentioned how much I hate Tom Waits? *sigh* Love. George. Like. Whoa.

I've got the Beck, does anybody have Tom Waits' Blue Valentine?



I've been reading up on Cannibis Psychosis. I want this to be the thing inflicting George and not the life long battle with schizophrenia or bi-polar or *insert life time mental disorder here*

I want it to be a thing happening *to* him, not *in* him. I want that a lot.
 
 
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16 May 2006 @ 12:22 am
EEEEE NEW COMPUTER HARDWARE!!!  
My Dad and I just finished installing a new Motherboard, Processor and RAM - because I need someone to hold my hand when I install that much hardware. Plus Dad's the only one who'll tell me I'm being a grumpy bitch unnecessarily and make me feel better for it...

OMG SO MUCH FASTER I GEEK-GASM ALL OVER!!!

I haven't really tested it yet but I bet I can even watch DVDs FROM THE DVD ROM without them skipping!!! And I'll be able to watch hi-quality vids again! And... I'll actually turn my computer off every once in a while b'c it won't take it FOURTEEN MINUTES to log in.

AND I'LL BE ABLE TO START UP FANGIRL BOOTY JUST IN TIME FOR SUMMER!!!

And make promised DVDS!!! *eyes [livejournal.com profile] iibnf*

*bounces*

omg so much faster

*hyperventilates*

*sips beer while Service Pack 2 installs*

Also? I'm going to see the Chili Peppers in August! OMG!!! FIRST FANDOM EVAR!!! *FLAILS SO MUCH SHE SPILLS SHIT ALL OVER*

ALSO? I... I might be dating. Maybe. *cryptic*

*vibrates with GLEE*
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grooving to: Stadium Arcadium - Red Hot Chili Peppers
locale: living room. omg public!
mood:: ecstatic
 
 
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01 May 2006 @ 10:15 pm
So [livejournal.com profile] lierdumoa showed me this song  
Candy by Foxy Brown feat. Kelis

This is John taunting the Wraith with his wiles. Shimmying and prancing like the hot young conceited thang he is.

I want Candy.

Lyrics )
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grooving to: Candy (feat. Kelis) - Foxy Brown
mood:: i want candy
 
 
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20 April 2006 @ 04:21 am
So there's a new Tool cd.  
It's kind of... tame? It's like Vinalla Tool with savory cream cheese frosting. I miss my bloody steak with a steak knife that cuts you when you're not looking.

Also? This icon totally works for Maynard. *G*
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grooving to: Tool - Intension
mood:: tired, but not.
 
 
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26 January 2006 @ 04:19 am
SGA Playlist Part I  
When [livejournal.com profile] permetaform charged me with making an SGA playlist I didn't realize I had a deadline, which is up in a week that I'm totally going tomiss.

Also? It was really hard to come up with songs not by Soul Coughing. I found one today. I ever get this to a done or 'done for now' point I'll let y'all know. Also, I plan to host all these songs on an as yet unnamed domain.

Wattershed by the Foo Fighters sung acousticly in the style of Ralph Schnider of the B52s. Sung on some radio show.
Aggro!Rodney being Scientisty and bopping his head to this happy angry song in his head when no one is looking.

Soul Coughing
Screenwriter's Blues
Dark Sex. Torture. Inner turmoil/angst. Prowling. Bitter, bitter angst.