26 February 2008 @ 12:44 am
Please let this be PMS related... Please?  
Lately I've been just around the corner from curling into a weepy ball of tears. Y'know how you... wait. "You" are not me. ::ahem:: *I* sometimes turn into a weepy mush ball; curled up in a fetal position on my bed crying into my many many pillows. Mostly this happens when I've had the same headache for two weeks straight. It's the weepy flopping of frustration, weakness, losing and grief. Grief can tug at us until we fall over into a puddle of weepy tears. And well... I'm not there. But it's like I'm moving towards it. Like *that* is right around this corner I'm approaching. And I just read this lovely story and turned into a weepy puddle for a bit and... I just kind of want to curl into a ball and not wake up until June or next fall or fall of 2009 - when I can go home.

I don't hate L.A. as much as I used to, but it's still not home. )

Okay i feel better. Allergies are weighing me down more than the SoCal Isolation. Which is good. I can... hand wave a medical issue out of my face more easily than the SoCal Isolation. I think maybe it's time to get a hepa filter. And maybe try that sinus rinse thing. Like Dean said to his inner Deamon, I don't deserve this. I'm awesome! The trick is remembering that. Stupid childhood abuse fucking with my self-worth.

Speaking of SoCal, I met a bunch of you at Wincon. I remember many gleeful moments of ::gasp:: YOU LIVE HERE?!! We should... do things. Super things.
grooving to: Chevelle - One Lonely Visitor
mood:: gloomy
21 February 2008 @ 11:18 pm
Voice Post - Supernatural non-verbal noise making  
mood:: hot
grooving to: Supernatural 3x13
12 October 2007 @ 09:06 am
I'm in room 813 with [livejournal.com profile] gelasius.

Please be to sending me a text message!!

13 August 2007 @ 06:34 am
Okay I'm... plunging? Foraging? GIMME TEH FIC!!  
[livejournal.com profile] winchestercon is coming up and I feel woefully under prepared. When Supernatural was new the fic had scary characterization that made my eyes burn. Then [livejournal.com profile] poisontaster showed up and like... fixed it. Inspired. Something. Cakes.* I mean it's entirely possible she had nothing to do with it at all, but I started reading hers and [livejournal.com profile] mona1347's stuff and it was GOOD. And foraged out and my eyes didn't burn so much. But um... my life's been rather hectic of late? ::cough:: So I need to be edumacated. Oh...


And I'm really looking forward to seeing my Bay Area fen. I MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!

What are the classics? What stories set the fanon tone? Is there a handy Supernatural fic primer? Yes, I'm already going through [livejournal.com profile] crack_van.

Besides [livejournal.com profile] poisontaster/[livejournal.com profile] mona1347 and [livejournal.com profile] maygra what other authors need to be devoured in full?

What authors give you nightmares? Who uses blood as lube?

Who writes the porn where people leap onto Dean's magical penis? Like [livejournal.com profile] onelittlesleep's Someday, The Mountain Lion Get Him.

Oh and Wall!Sex. I... love me some wall sex.

And VAMPIRES!! I. LOVE. VAMPIRES!!! I kinda wish [livejournal.com profile] audrarose was going so I could... encourage her to finish the Venom verse.

And Dean or Sam being possessive bitches that have hot hot sex! Like in [livejournal.com profile] lyra_wing's flavored lube series. Cherry and Chocolate.

* I'll be explaining my perfectly justified use of cakes soon.
grooving to: Korn - Ever Be
mood:: curious
28 July 2007 @ 10:15 pm
So.... I was at Comic Con today. GUESS WHAT PANEL I WAS IN THE 4TH ROW FOR?!?  

Report to come later. And by "report" I mean pictures Abigale* took and the audio recording I made.

Let the h8ing begin!!!

ETA: I TOTALLY MET HENRY ROLLINS AND HAVE PICTURES. Henry Rollins is like my surrogate Uncle. Liar reminded me not to make any more stupid and desperate choices than I already had.

* Fake name!
grooving to: Supernatural - 1x01 IN HD!!!
13 June 2007 @ 12:17 am
I hear there are some GIANT SPOILERS for Supernatural. TELL ME NOTHING!!!  
Two of you have already asked me if I've heard the spoilers for Supernatural.

No, I haven't.

Nor do I wish to.

Thank you. That is all.

15 days
mood:: accomplished
grooving to: Underworld II
18 May 2007 @ 05:17 am
SPN 2x23 - DEEEEEEEAN!!!  
I... I love being able to predict plot points somtimes. )

Oh god I love Dean.
mood:: spent
24 April 2007 @ 10:51 pm
Voice Post - You know what's missing form Grey's Anatomy?  
MPREG and Dean Winchester.

mood:: giggly
07 April 2007 @ 02:14 pm
So I have a possessive kink.  
Shut up. I know y'all knew that. I... I'm slow sometimes, okay?

A bit Kentish.

And I love the dark things. (Yes I knew that one.) Light fic for me? Is fic with an overtone of possessiveness. Like [livejournal.com profile] lyra_wing's Hustla, Baby. Or her Cherry and Chocolate stories. And OH GOD Pavlov's Bell with the BITING. And... ::keens::
05 April 2007 @ 10:10 pm
ETA: the vidder's LJ handle is [livejournal.com profile] bangles. And you should also know that [livejournal.com profile] morgandawn rec'd it first.









::plays again::


Okay so... Depeche Mode was some of the only good porn to come out of that genre. Just... WHY DON'T I HAVE ANY DEPECHE MODE ON MY HARD DRIVE? CLEARLY I HAVE MADE SOME GRAVE ERROR SOMEWHERE ALONG THE WAY...

I.... I just caught myself carressing the edges of my laptop with my fingertips. I... gah I wish I had a bunk to go to. YES FINE [livejournal.com profile] tigress35!! SLEEPING IN THE LIVING ROOM CAN SUCK!!

::hits play for the 11th time::

::rocks more, carresses laptop::

::procures some Depeche Mode::
26 February 2007 @ 04:28 pm
We love morgandawn!  
[livejournal.com profile] morgandawn recs us the shiniest things!!!

Multi-Fandom Procreation Smut Community

I think she nicknamed it Procreation Across the Nation. It's basically a comm where road trippin' Dean knocks up ladies b'c IT MAKES HIM SO HAPPY.
mood:: awake
grooving to: Stick It To The Pimp - Peaches
12 February 2007 @ 06:24 pm
New shows and fandom goals  
New Shows:

I love Courtney Cox like *burning*. I mostly hate Friends. Friends is not my Cox. Scream is my Cox. Pushy, bitchy UP IN YOUR FACE is my Cox. Dirt has my Cox.

Ugly Betty
Had I *known* I loved Eric Mabius on my screen [livejournal.com profile] lierdumoa and [livejournal.com profile] denyce36 would've been more successful in luring me into Ugly Betty. I don't love Mabius like I love Jensen and Rosenbaum. I don't wanna climb him like a nekkid jungle gym. I just really *really* enjoy his performances.
ETA: OMG don't *spoil* me! This is me and [livejournal.com profile] poisontaster's Special Show. I only watch it with *her* and we're only up to 1x08.

And [livejournal.com profile] poisontaster is holding my hand through Deadwood. I just... they're all so fugly and dirty. I... it's very hard!! ::cries::

Afro Samurai
Samuel L. Jackson anime.

Oh you want more?


Fanart goals:
Finish Petrellicest manips. Make icons and several different sized HQ wallpapers. Wide vs. standard screen sized.

Make HQ caps of this pose. DONE!
Then make icon/banner/something b'c Daniel is the most beggingist bottom that ever bottomed.

Hot FNL Pogue icon. And then maybe I can start watching the show again.

Make HQ frame by frame exports of the ENTIRE EVIL!SAM BAR SCENE. B'c NOT ONE FUCKING PERSON has made a decent Evil!Sam icon. And by decent I mean bitchgirl's face is mostly out of frame and I can kinda forget it's *her*. I've been scouring the SPN comms for *days*. SPN fandom is on notice!

Make icons from HQ Under a Bad Sign frames.

Write up SPN fandom ranty mcranty rant before it essplodes and starts leaking on its own. ::koff::

Write up Carnivale Grandmother Archetypes crack!meta.

Suck It Up fanart to finalize and post:
CRK Icon
Dexter wallpaper
Geek love icon - so I can start posting all the cool geekery that's in my head.

Ravenous caps
Ravenous icons

Joint ventures with (mostly) [livejournal.com profile] lierdumoa

Clipping for the Dean vid.

Obtaining source for The Top Sekrit vid.
Clipping for The Top Sekrit vid.

Borrowing source for the Mercy!Lana vid.
Working out story and timelne for he Mercy!Lana beats Clark vid.
Clipping for the Mercy!Lana kryptonite heels roundhouse kick vid.

I'm a strong contributer to [livejournal.com profile] lierdumoa's ginormously epic HP/SGA crossover ::points to icon:: where one Colonel John Sheppard was born Harry Potter The Boy Who Lived. Lier and I have spent at *least* 30 hours just coming up with plot, pairings, individual character arcs and crazy crazy plot devices sciencey stuff.
[livejournal.com profile] lierdumoa has a snippet here and I think the whole idea came out of [livejournal.com profile] anthropomorfic's awesome fic Different Kinds of Magic.

And apparently I'm co-writing the SGA Office Space AU...

[livejournal.com profile] permetaform and I are also going to do a vid for Carnivale - eventually.
grooving to: The Crystal Ship - The Doors
09 February 2007 @ 03:22 am
Supernatural 2x14 - Born Under a Bad Sign  
Firstly please be to listening to my new favorite song: The Crystal Ship by The Doors.

This ep was made just for [livejournal.com profile] poisontaster to help make up for the shitastic year she's been having. And since we all know the creators couldn't actually dedicate the ep to her (copyright issues and all that) *I* dedicate this ep to her for them. No for serious! Kripke called me!

This one's for YOU PT!!! <3!!!

Now onto my riveting episode reaction...

::grabs the bed covers and wriiiiithes:: )
mood:: predatory
grooving to: The Crystal Ship - The Doors
09 February 2007 @ 02:17 am
Hello fandom!! - Oh Supernatural how I've *missed* you!!!  
This is my SPN catch up night. I walked in on [livejournal.com profile] lierdumoa watching tonight's ep and she was making my crazy eyes at me. So I asked her, "So... I should be catching up then?" And then she said shiny like six times. So it's a catch up night tonight!

2x12 Nightshifter was *awesome*! I can see why fandom was all in an excitable tizzy.

2x13 House of the Holy ...
Magic. Fingers. I... yeah. That's really all this ep is about yes? There was a girl in an awesome skirt and busty top. And then there was Dean. Smiling smiling Dean.
Also? PICK A CAMERA ZOOM!!! Stop with the IN and the OUT!! This isn't fucking Smallville!!!

And tonight's ep needs its own post. With a cut tag and shit.
10 January 2007 @ 05:01 am
Have you seen [livejournal.com profile] leggyslove's awesome pic spam of *awesome*?

mood:: BWEE!!!
grooving to: These Things - She Wants Revenge
18 December 2006 @ 05:36 pm
I collect icons. Off the top of my head I can name these artists - a recs post  
I have over six-thousand icons archived on my computer. Often I just save entire sets from artists so that I can look at them like art collections. And whenever there's fen at my house I show them some of my favorites and it occurred to me today - while [livejournal.com profile] poisontaster was here - that I should really be sharing with all of you. If I need to start archiving to pimp I'll deal with that later. For now I'll just preview icons that I or my friends are currently using.

Today I'm pimping the handful of icon makers whose journals I can type in from memory. These lovely artists are my go to for Fandom X, Mood Y, or Celeb Z.

[livejournal.com profile] eternalenigma makes some pretty fucking nifty icons. She makes everybody on Stargate: Atlantis look tricksy, evil, or just *wrong* - in the *best* way possible. Sadly she's only icon'd S1 at this point. Her Smallville icons are also distinct in that she makes Lex look gentle and emo but Chloe all threatening and scary. And she does a thing with saturation and shadows that just... lures me in. [livejournal.com profile] lierdumoa and I are working on a Stargate: Atlantis moodtheme with the artist's permission. Currently I use this icon:

[livejournal.com profile] lierdumoa uses these icons:

[livejournal.com profile] carmendove has an excellent eye for composition. All of her icons draw the eye in instead of giving it the runaround for a focal point. [livejournal.com profile] carmendove dabbles in other fandoms, but her main focus these days is Supernatural. I use these:
and [livejournal.com profile] poisontaster likes these ones:

[livejournal.com profile] teh_indy is just Teh R0x0rs. When I have a new off the beaten path fandom I go to her journal first for my icon fix. She's prolific and has a style that just *gels* with me. I mean when Constantine came out I went searching high and low for a Chas Cramer icon that didn't burn my eyeballs. I stalked several communities and then BAM! [livejournal.com profile] teh_indy already had a bunch. She icons a *lot* of movies. Her biggest fandoms are LOTR, Pirates of the Caribbean, Fight Club, Veronica Mars, and Lost. I have several sets of her Firefly & Serenity icons. And she did hilarious text/emoticons once. Just... *key*. And she tags like a mofo making your fandom of choice easy to find.

[livejournal.com profile] boxedslod is [livejournal.com profile] slodwick's icon journal. She gets color, composition and *lighting* omg. Slod does a lot of non-fannish stuff. Comics, pretty boys and girls. She understands that John Sheppard is hot, Jason Momoa is hilarious and Hewlett can make you cry.

[livejournal.com profile] kitschdeluxe is [livejournal.com profile] wearmyhat's icon journal. She's the Stargate:Atlantis pancake lady. She's also made some *really* hot John/Wraith icons. Yes. I said *hot*. She's tricksy and I adore her. I love how she kind of... uses extreme composition. She will often almost push the characters out of frame, but at the same time the characters remain the focal point. It's a risky style that she pulls off really fucking well.

I'm pretty sure I have *all* of her Supernatural icons archived. What I love most about them is her ability to utilize the show's native lighting and coloring, while tweaking them just enough so that the icons aren't too monochrome and blah for our computer eyes. My current icon of hers doesn't highlight that particular talent. It's just Dean and Coffee. Two things that we love together. I even have a folder just for Coffee!Dean icons - most of which came I got from [livejournal.com profile] kitschdeluxe.

Next I think I'll be doing icons that are near and dear to me that no one else would give a hoot about. And then I plan to do Classic Fandom icons. Y'know, that fandom we're not really *in* anymore but we still squeal like little girls when someone makes pretties for it.
mood:: productive
grooving to: Red Flags and Long Nights - She Wants Revenge
08 December 2006 @ 01:08 am



::AND CLUTCHES AT [livejournal.com profile] lierdumoa::



::AND... well you get the idea.
07 December 2006 @ 12:42 am
Sometimes our friends are total bitcas.  
And we want to beat them senseless. Especially when they start writing an awesome crossover in their JOURNAL like it's a regular post. And 500 words later they DROP IT LIKE A DEAD DEAD THING. Not even *end* it. Just *POOF*

And I'm bitter. B'c there was Izzy and Dean & Sam Winchester Duket and... the Nazi towering over them like A TINY TOWERING THING!!!

SO. BITTER. So I encourage all of you to go poke [livejournal.com profile] permetaform for being such a cruel tease.

grooving to: Home - Three Days Grace
mood:: grrrr!!!
13 October 2006 @ 12:42 am
SPN 2x03 - Are we seriously gonna get a vid every time? *WINZ*  
Mona GET IN HERE!! )

Why don't any of you stay up 'till 2am with me to watch SPN? Seriously [livejournal.com profile] poisontaster! It's not like you sleep much anyway!!! You should stay up with me! B'c I'd TOTALLY be over at your house if you weren't an hour+ away and your roommate wasn't so goddamn attention starved he can't even keep his mouth shut for 10 minutes. And the one upping me? ::shakes head:: He'll always lose. Poor bastard.

So the spoiler ) foreshadowing could have been better. But that's a peeve of mine. God so clumsy! I HATE IT WHEN I SEE IT COMING!! That's why I *watch* this show. It's not that the show is so good I don't see it coming. It's that usually I'm so distracted by the pretty, the cinematography, the MUSIC, the pretty and oh god the dialog. Nobody does dialog like Jensen Ackles. He takes these *horrible* lines that would be OH GOD SO AWFUL on somebody else and he molds them into succulent phrases that just make me all a quiver inside. Yes, yes. Also a word h0r. But I hardly ever see the foreshadowing. Sure on a second viewing it pings me like a crazy pinged thing, but first time 'round? So distracted that everything is a surprise!
mood:: jubilant
grooving to: Are You There - Josh Wink
05 October 2006 @ 11:35 pm
Clowns are scary? Buh?  
I just finished reading a bunch of your SPN reactions and I have a confession. I've never thought Supernatural is scary. And dude clowns? I seriously missed that bus. I've never even seen that bus!

I mean when [livejournal.com profile] lierdumoa and I are clutching and reaching for each other in the darkened room it's from the squee or the "OMG they just DID THAT!!!" like with the truck. That was coooool. And uh, there is a definite good chance that I mock you all out loud from my couch. Maybe. ::shifty eyes:: I mean Asylum was creepy in that, "Oooo look they're being creepy! Go team SPN!" sort of way. I was so proud!

But actually scary? I get and love that Supernatural is so stylistically horror. I just don't know how so many of you to get to that place where you're scared. Am I that jaded? Please tell me what is so damn scary about this show?
mood:: buh?